I wish you had spoken 

The things you never said stayed me with me and haunted me all these years

The words you never uttered, echoed in my ears all these years,

These sentences are familiar yet so foreign,

They are dangerously calm and tauntingly loud,

I wish you had spoken to me,

Because the words of silence are more agonizing than the words spoken,

                   **Falak Zia**

She once said

I am scared to be alone at night” she once told him,

Since then he never leave her grave at night,

Its cold out there when it rains” she once said

Since then he always covered her grave with a blanket incase it rained,

I love roses so much, i wish i had dozens of them” she once said

Since then he had put bouquets of roses on her grave everyday,

I love homemade food more” she once said

Since then he never had eaten out,

Will you get the tattoo of my name“? She once joked

Since then he had gotten ten tattoos of her name,

I believe God is there out somewhere” she once said

Since then he had seen oftenly in the mosque,

I love you” she once said

Since then he whispered these words to her grave countless times,

                    **Falak Zia**

*Not afraid to love*

She is not afraid to love again,

What she is afraid of is putting her all trust on you, only to be her trust broken,

She is not afraid to love again

What she is afraid of is giving you her heart, only to be her heart ripped,

She is not afraid to love again

What she is afraid of is giving her all, only to be taken for granted

She is not afraid to love again,

What she is afraid of is investing herself in you, only for herself to be crushed,

She is not afraid to love again,

What she is afraid of is rebuilding herself and starting over and over again, only to be left behind everytime,

                     **Falak Zia**

Your long forgotten

I was your long forgotten, you were my everytime remember,

I was your left behind, you were my look forward,

I was your pain, you were my pure bliss,

I was your sometimes noticed, you were my always longing,

I was your pitch-blackness, you were my heaven’s path light

I was your peel of heart, you were my whole heart,

I was all yours, you were a little bit mine,

“And just like a blow of wind, you came and gone but took a piece of my heart with you, a beautiful part that will stay forever with you, though my intention was to overcome this part”

                **Falak Zia**

Fierce flame

I will set my soul on the fire,

And watch you burn, 

I will be burnt by the fire,

“But you”

You will be ignited with the feirce flame of love, that will tore you into pieces and into ashes and into nothing,

Your breathe stolen, your mouth open, your eyes slit, your heart ripped, your soul taken,

I will set my soul on the fire ,

And watch you burn

~Falak Zia

I lost myself in loving you 💔

I thought I lost you , but in reality i lost myself in loving you, you are very much alive but i am gone, merely breathing like a living corpse, people say love hurts , i rather think love kills, it killed me a long time ago, i have become nothing but a hollowed shell, while you are present here, living life to the fullest, alas ! I am the only one here suffering, you moved on long time ago, i once promise myself that  as long as you are happy and out of worries i would be happy and everything i ever wanted to see was you smiling but there’s a part inside me that aches because you no longer long for me, my tear soaked pillow lays there, my face covered in tears and sobs escaping my mouth, this little part of me should be blamed, it completely shattered myself,

“Losing you was the biggest lost because i lost myself in loving you” ~ Falak Zia 

Letting go is necessary to be at peace

You can’t let someone go when you have loved them with every ounce of your heart, when you have wanted to spend the rest of your life with them, when you were together for so long, when you saw dreams with them, when you have felt wanted by them, when they were the only thing you have ever had, when you never loved someone more than them, right ?

  • But what if they no longer want to be with you or things are not working out ?

That will be a drastic change in your life, you opened up to them, you gave them your heart but in return you haven’t got what you invested or simply that’s the matter of luck or whatever maybe the reasons were….  abruptly you have to breaking up with them, means you are fully out of their lives, no more chats, meet up days and showers of affection 😦 that will cause so much trauma…

Emotions are real and are something that exist, in the bottom of our hearts layer of warmth lives ❤ we felt affection because it is molded into genuine and totally pure emotions…

Sometimes those emotions can become unhealthy that’s why letting go is necessary, just like bottling up sadness, guilt or anger cause us to be depressed those emotions do effect us the same way,

The person you loved is out of your life then why you can’t forget them ? Why continue watering the dead flower ? Why crying over the broken glass ?

The tears, the phase of depression and melancholy you must pass is hard, but once you pass it and set them free to their will make you feel relieved, you will find it difficult to love someone else again, of course you were used to beloved and in love but it had left your heart broken so that wasn’t a healthy relationship…Why not giving someone a chance who will be willing to love you freely? 

You can’t reach for something new when your hands are still full with yesterday’s junk,

You need to ask yourself these questions, You need to make up your mind, you need to count on yourself, you need to depend on yourself, you need to be finally in #Peace because peace in your life starts when you begin to choose peace. ✌